29 July 2008
Emily did my lashes for me while her new girl did it for Joanne. Hmm... wonder she likes her eye lash extension. When done, went to Sakura Restaurant to buy dinner for Eric, Tony and Vivian. But I reached there pretty late, around 9.45pm. Aww... so sorry.
Though the food turns cold, but they enjoyed their dinner and glad they like the food. Bought for 'em seafood hor fun, tom yam fried rice, oats prawns and scallop with baby kai lan.
Initial plan is to head to Chillz with Eric but later decided not to tag along. Cuz wanna him enjoy his drink with his friend, Shawn.
Guess yesterday night was his turn to text me funny smses. Haa... guy you okay? Whats on your mind, let me know and I promise... I'll answer you directly. I won't ask you back when you asked me qns any more.
Had a good chat with him on the phone till 3am. Haha...
SBS, where is my cheque?
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:49
28 July 2008
Just finish with work, so exhausted.
Dora asked if I wanna head down to Chillz with her . I told her that I won't be going down. Then she said that I've to prove that I can still enjoy without him. I find it kinda weird.
Anyway he texted that he'd be working late tonight, so hinted me to buy dinner over to his office. So after doing lashes, gotta buy dinner from FEP and head down to Raffles.
Tired gotta do laundry before sleep.
Tomorrow meeting Jasmine
Wednesday meeting Gina & Eric
Thursday gotta be back home early to help e old man to pay his bills
Friday meeting Doreen to buy yoga map
Meeting Eric @ Expo then most probably staying over at his place since coming Sat don't 've to work
I hope I'll luv myself more
16:39
Reached home this morning, and noticed lil' niece was trying to open my room door. She even went to take the key to unlock my room door. But before she manage to, I opened the door and asked what she wants. She questioned me lots of questions. Argh... madness. But she's so sweet! =)
Dora texted, thanks for her concern.
Meet up with my very good, close friend Zann up and my lil' godson Malcom at AMK Hub for lunch @ New York. Fabulous! Then we head to Toa Payoh to do some shopping for Malcom. I think in total I bought him 3sets of clothing. =D
Then took train back to AMK Hub and walked 3 bus stops with her. Haha... then I took cabby back home.
He called and I never been so contradicted before. But I shall believe him just once more.
And m gonna tell myself, no matter what happened is my choice. Don't implicate anyone, if anything gonna goes wrong.
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:48
27 July 2008
Friday evening after work took train together with Fo Mei cuz going to Eric chalet at Aloha Loyang. Reached Pasir Ris, went to White Sands Watson to get my toothpaste.
Reached the Chalet at about 7pm, had my shower and been resting inside the room. Can't really sleep, cuz they were chit chatting right outside my room. Was alone in the dark and he came into the room two times. I went out around 1am, get to know quite a few of his friends. Didn't had my dinner, so he heat up the cheesy hotdog and I ate it together with white bread. Not long after that, all his friends went back home. Soon after that, he puked. =(
Had a hard time taking care of him, but he did manage to pass me a blank cheque.
Had a hard time taking care of him, but he did manage to pass me a blank cheque.
In the middle of night, he coughed so badly. Went out to take a glass of hot water for him. Is so hot that I blew it till the water turns warm. But he already stop coughing. So didn't wake him up to drink.
Woke up switched off the air con, cuz we were very cold. Went to shower and he called cabby for me. And I took cabby to work since Thurs. =(
Reached work place after which took 502 back home, an hour journey. So rotted but at least there are seats for me to sit. =)
Took a nap and overslept, suppose to meet Gina at 4.45pm at DG. Took cabby down to PS to had dinner at the dining place where Alfred and I had our dinner that Monday evening.
At night head down to Chillz Bar with Gina. Soon Michelle, Jeslyn, baby joined us. Been smoking quite a lot and drank quite a lot. Because of what she told me about Eric. Guy, is not the first day you know me. And do I looks like I'm playing? And you should be very sure by now, that I'm always serious. If you're playing with me, then tell your friend that you're playing with me. Don't twist your words and said that I just wanna play with you. Do I looks like I'm a bitch/sult?
You told me that you're not a good guy, then leave me and stop hurting me. Really appreciate your accompaniment for the past one month, walking through with me and kept me occupied by asking me out for movie, dinner and drink. I thought we would have a chat on Friday night but you were so drunk. I really wanna share with you whats on my mind. I told you that, and yet end up you asked me if I wanna tell you I had a child.
Did you know how disappointed I was and how much I bother to know the reason why this question came across your mind? Yet you refuse to answer my question until you get to know that I'm very drunk at Chillz Bar. But really surprised that you came down because I thought you wouldn't care and give a damn to it. My friend Jasmine ever told me before, if a guy really cares, he'll definitely rush down to take care of me. But what I asked for was only a hug and embrace me tightly just like how you held me in your arm in the morning. And you told that you can't possible hug me infront of my friend. Thanks for sitting down on the ground with me, and ur foot pains right? Haa... forgotten that your just recovered from your injuries. Sorry. Soon you left and you texted. Your smses, shows that you care... but why m I keep hearing all negative things about you from people at Chillz?
I need your assurance...
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:51
25 July 2008
Wednesday suppose to meet up with Jasmine for dinner but was being held back by Adrain meeting. Feeling sleepy at the beginning of the talk, but was being wake up by Fo Mei. Tried to pay attention to it, is actually a meeting where we learnt a lot of stuffs from him.
Head back home right after that, is already 10pm.
Thursday evening joined Eric and his customers for drink at Marriott Hotel. Enjoyed myself so I drank quite a fair bit. Ended hiding inside the ladies cubical as usual sleeping. Then Dior came in and called my name I unlocked the door and let her in. Gosh, I was hugging the toilet bowl. Guess she locked the door for me, and someone knocked the door, so we went to the basin. Finally I used my finger to make myself throw up. Whole lots better.
Went out to join 'em but apologised to Eric that I need to rest awhile on the table. Haha... all his friends are very nice they took care of me. In total there are 8 of us (Alase, James, Jacque, Dior, Jasmine, one more forgotten his name, Eric and I)
Reached home at 12am, manage to wake up this morning. After work, gonna head down to join 'em for BBQ. Guess staying overnight. =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:25
22 July 2008
Met up with Nora at Chillz, waited for her for about an hour and forty five mins? She was held up by work, so I had my dinner at Mac then reached Chillz at 7pm.
Soon he and his friends arrived, and he asked "Miss, are you alone?" Get to know his friends Federick and Eileen. Nice knowing them. Soon Nora came and a lil' while more, her friend Desmond joined us. Then get to chat with Anthony as well. He's PFC of AIA. Get to know many people from financial sector. =D
I think he's crazy to buy me another bottle of martell. He himself don't drink hard liquor... how am I going to finish it myself?
As usual, he always leave the pub earlier than me.
This morning thought everything goes smoothly for me at work, but who knows of that out-dated system resulted that I've to do reversal, again. =(
Wanted to meet him after work, but too tired. Beside gotta wash up my clothes and have a good rest.
So m off to do laundry, shower and an early sleep.
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:20
20 July 2008
Watched Hellboy II last evening, a nice show worth to watch. Watched Wanted, Hancock, Stranger, Red Cliff and Dark Knight as well. If you ask me to recommend, then I'd recommend Hellboy II and Hancock.
Head to PS to had my dinner with Jasmine, had Pepper Chicken Rice. Thumbs up! She bought me fruit juice. Thanks thanks babe. Muackz
Head down to Chillz, waited for baby for 45mins. Is okies, cuz was a last min meet out. Reached there around 11pm. Hui Wen joined us shortly. She looks exhausted but she still came down, appreciate it. That why I'm so happy last night. Sang Ni Zui Zhen Gui with him, so I disturbed him and said "Make sure you keep your promise that you'll buy roses for me". He said he'll and I said "Let's see how many roses you'll get for me". He's so silly to paid for my bottle of martell. Madness and craziness.. I went to ask Zhuling did she allows him to pay for my drink. She told me she had no idea too. Accompanied Hui Wen to wait for cabby, and he came out too. Talks to him very seriously, and um hmm... he asked. So I asked him for one good reason why must I agree. So let's see what reason he 'll give this coming Friday.
Anyway, he told me last night that one of his ex girlfriend was at Chillz too. So I insisted him to introduce her to me. And her name is Nora... tomorrow evening meeting her for a drink at Chillz. Looking forward to it.
Just ended call with him, get to know his past. Hmm... another one. =) Haa...
Alright gotta sleep, he just reminded me of my 35bucks of cabby fare.
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:46
19 July 2008
Went out around 11am with Rosie to buy lunch for colleagues. While Fo Mei having her lunch I attended a customer who just want to deposit 2 cheques. Guess I forgotten to clear the casting machine, so it actually added the two amounts I entered with the previous figure. Resulted that I credited wrong amount. Eileen had been reminding me for the past few days to check and counter check before hitting enter. Reversal performed due to my negligence
She must be very disappointed with me. But she still puts on a smile and joke with me. She makes me feel even bad. I lost my appetite and totally ruined my entire day. I don't blame the calculator, I don't blame FM for not clearing off after she finished her casting. I blame myself for not checking my work before I proceed. In the end, I made this kind of stupid mistake. Unforgivable. Because I'm experienced staff. I dropped Eileen an email apologising to her for not checking my work before I process. She came over and talked to me, I told her that I'm not used to the casting machine of ABN Amro. What OC used, is another model. She asked me to find out the model and she tried to get approval from Mrs Teo to buy NAC branch the casting machine that I preferred. Thanks.
Was being called to had my lunch as early as possible. As Country Head would be visiting the branch in the afternoon.
Sms him...
Me: "Hmm, sorry can I do a make up of today's mtg on some other day. I make a mistake at work, ruined my mood..."
He: "Don't worry, you can share with me later. Don't spoil your day like that, I lend you my ear k?"
Me: "Sorry, wanna be alone. Make up some other day"
He: Okay, you share with me when you want to okay? Call me any time
I knew right after receiving the last sms from him that he'd be wondering what happened and worried sick for me. Yet my mood was so lousy to drop him a sms to assure him that I would be fine.
He called, but hung up right after 2secs around 2am just now. So I called him back and he don't sound quite okay. Because he drank quite a lot this evening, entertainment purpose. He tried to get me to share with him, but I refused as it's just a lil' small matter that bothers me the entire day. I apologised.
As usual, he called at around 3am right after his shower to chit chat a lil'. I won't forget what we had said.
A asked B if B wanna be A's partner.
B thinks that, it's not whether B wanna be A's partner or not. Is whether A is also willing to be B 's partner.
He'd be organising a chalet for his 18years friend birthday at Aloha L if on the upcoming Friday.I purposely disturbed him saying that his girlfriend 'd be there. Asking him to introduce his girlfriend to me. He asked me to look into the mirror and shake hand. ****
=)
For memories purpose..
I'm really sorry. I knew u'd be worried sick =) I'll never switch off my phone unless I really don't wanna people to reach me. (text deleted) One thing I wanna let you know is I really wanna meet you for dinner because I don't wanna you head to drink . N though I don't take bak ku teh, I'll still accompany you there. I can always have something else. Anyway don't worry about me okay? I'll be fine. And please, I'm saying please don't say sorry to me when you did nothing wrong. You don 've to scare uou are disturbing me. You're not n really appreciate ur effort to text, to call, to ask me out for movie I met him on Mon evening for dinner and realised that life still can move on w/o him, is jux a matter of time. Thanks for keeping me occupied.
Alright, tomorrow 'd be meeting him in the evening for dinner.
I hope I'll luv myself more
04:56
17 July 2008
Alright haven't been blogging for the past few days.
So Monday in the late afternoon Alfred called and said that he would be meeting me @ PS. PS again... looks like PS gonna be my after work hanging out place. =) I was slightly late, so he was inside the arcade when I reached. Took the life up to 7th floor, again 7th floor. (Definitely go up the 7th floor each time I been to PS, cuz that's where the cinema located at) So we took escalator all the way down to Ajisen Ramen to had our dinner. Through out the dinner, didn't really talk much. He changed so much... unlike the Alfred I used to know. Starts to talk and laugh when heading to the bus stop. But waiting and waiting for the bus, we decided to take train instead. So depart with him @ Dhoby Ghaut. Thanks for the dinner.
Tuesday evening out with Gina to JP to had dinner at KFC. Then head down to collect our notebook that the salesgirl kept for us. Bought some stationary for my work. Now documents and stuffs are neatly on my desk. =D
Wednesday evening out with Hui Wen dinner at JP, Bento Box. Dinner on me, 30bucks. After that, head down to John Lil' to shop for lingeries. Frankly speaking, don't really like to go shopping with her. Cuz she kept asking you for opinion. =( Ice Cream @ mac before we head back home, thanks for the ice cream.
Thursday morning, the bus was so crowded that I couldn't get up. And my mind kept thinking of the herbal tea that I promise to bring to the office for him. So I went back home to take the herbal tea as well as extra cash for cabby fare. When I went down I bump into Jolene. Hmm... still the same old her. Haha... she said I looks prettier, come on... is only my eyes look more glamorous right? Cuz with the eye lashes extension. =)
Took cabby to work and guess what? Driver drove me to Suntec City instead of Ngee Ann City. =( So I texted Eileen Fong (My BOM, Cash Officer, Manager) that I'd be late. Guess she hate me a lot, cuz she hate people to be late. N guess my cab fare, is $34.50 is the most expensive cabby fare in my entire life. Madness!!! Then this RM (Relationship Manager) took bloody hell long to get down from the cab. Cuz my driver wanna drive inner for me to alight. I was thinking, wtf... who's this person? His/her butt must be glued on the seat. Hell... and is Kenny. That YAYA PAPAYA Retarded Man. Not much of a choice but to board the same lift with him. Greeted him, and of course.. he has to. Obviously I'm late and he acted as if he's so gentlemen. Sighs, lots of things to said about him. So I guess, I better stop (FULL STOP) Anyway, as promised her in my sms that I'll reach before 9am. And yepp luckily I manage.
No customer at all, until when the branch is about to close. This customer came in to close off his accounts. Then Eric was downstair waiting for my herbal tea, guess he waited for half an hour. Sorry. Guess m lil' stupid. Bought him the herbal tea yesterday evening and brought back home. This morning brought it to office, then was thinking how am I suppose to pass it to him. So not much of a choice, he had to make his way to my office to take from me. Thanks for waiting without complaining.
Haven't been heading straight back home from work for so long. Haha... thought of taking a nap but I didn't. Thought of washing up my clothes when I reached home, but I didn't as well. I switched on the computer just to blog. =)
Hmm... my lil' niece so noisy. Sighs...
Alright, tomorrow is Friday. Weekend is here. And this week, my Sat off. Hees.
ABN system sucks... tomorrow must remember to input 04 =(
Oh ya, tomorrow the Country Head gonna visit our branch. And BM sent an email.
It goes...
Tomorrow Country Head would be visiting NAC, so all of you must be well dressed up and make sure pantyline would not be see.
Set your hair, perm ur lashes, waxing.
Guys rmb to trim ur nosehairs
Did I mention earlier on that my BM is a lil' gay-ish.
Just now inside e lift this guy introduced himself as Ga-ran-gu-ni and asked if I had anything to sell. Hmm... find it so awkward.
Hmm... pending for following mailers
4 bills
OC Pay Slip
ABN Amro ATM Pin
ABN Amro Internet Banking Pin
Cheque from SBS Transit Ltd
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:42
14 July 2008
Alright, is 3.55AM now and I'm still online. Still awake cuz Alfred is still online, chatted with him. After these 3years... I'm still the same. Been thinking and missing him as and when, when I'm free. Even some places reminds me of the past where we used to dine in, walked through... Some promises he made. I hope tomorrow evening, he'll be able to meet me for dinner. I'm not asking for anything much right? Just wanna 've a dinner with you. If possible, at the dinning place where we first been to. Could you bring me some sweet memories back?
Is already 4.05AM in the morning, tomorrow after work I must be exhausted. But if able to meet you out, I don't mind travel to your place and have dinner together. You said that the latest we'll meet up is tomorrow yet you can't promise me that. Hmm... okies shall not force you.
If fated, we don't 've to meet up. I believe one fine day, we'll still bump into each other.
Good Night...
I hope I'll luv myself more
03:55
He called around 5am, told me that his mom and aunts are terrible. Playing MJ non-stop, till he had his dinner only at 10pm+. Poor thing, hmm... if I'm with him... I'm sure I'll get 'em dinner @ 8pm.
Went back to sleep after that. So mummy came over at 11.30am and woke me up just to tell me that she brewed herbal tea for us. Alright, was so sleepy though last night I turn in before 11pm. =) Continue with my sleep till 1.30pm he sms me. =) woke up and write notes to refresh my memory for my work. An hour later, Gina called and asked if I wanna go JP with her. So went to shower and meet her @ JP. As usual, I was late. Sorry!
By right should be meeting Hui Wen for dinner in the evening but in the end, she didn't turn up. Kinda sad, cuz I haven't been seeing her for the past 2weeks. Kinda miss her too. But guess, soon we'll meet up soon for dinner before the night we head down to town for drinks.
Know that he was just disturbing me, but really have no idea what to get him for dinner. So I bought him Happy Meal as he said before hand that he wanna meal with toy. I even asked for the Happy Meal box. =) So we watched Red Cliff together. Nice show... but no ending, to be continue.
After which, they sent me back home first. So took my shower and he sms. Called and chit chatted till 2.3oam. Now chatting with Alfred on msn... wondering what time I'll get to sleep later. Cuz tomorrow still gotta work, sighs... Monday blues.
I hope I'll luv myself more
01:13
12 July 2008
Yesterday slept @ 2am++ and this morning I jump out of bed, because I thought is 6.45am. But when I came out from the bathroom, is only 6am. So switched on my computer and trying to transfer songs over to my mp3 s well s my mobile, but failed. Gave up already. Hees.
Reached work place pretty early, didn't realise that Rosie already reached branch. Was sitting at the waiting area when tea lady told me that I can go in, is already opened.
Time flies, cuz chit chatting with mentor, Judy. Today is her last day relief, Monday my colleague will be back from Perth. Hmm... wondering will I be opearating on Monday. Let's see... By the way, many things more to learn. N I wanna make my mentor proud of me.
Tried to take express bus service 502 back home, but board at the wrong stop. In the end the whole journey took me a about 90mins. =(
Hmm... thought would be meeting him in the evening but he has to play MJ with his mum & friends. So most probably not meeting him though he said he wouldn't mind travelling from bedok to JP just to watch mid night show with me. Though after movie, he can stay @ his brother house at CCK, I also don't wanna him to travel from East to West. Feeling exhausted too. So shall wait for his call.
Next week, maybe meeting him for dinner (he said, he'll bring me to eat some pizza-my fav which he described there'r lots of toppings on top and the crust is very very light only) pending for that evening. Saturday evening, finally can meet up with my baby for dinner. And then night time heading to town to drink with Junior Hui Wen.
Gosh, 10 July her birthday... totally forgotten about it. So sorry. Happy Belated Birthday!
This afternoon, after what Judy had said. I realised that I really must 've an aim in life. Sighs, all friends went back to study. N I've no planning 'bout that. So shitty. Since I've no plan for that, then I should excel in my work eh? And get promoted, if possible... within 2years. But the issue is, will I be in this company for more than 2years? Haha... I hope I'm able to, cuz don't wanna be labelled as 'Job Hopper'. =)
I miss my friends..
Kelly & Qin
Going off to shower and rest.
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:42
For the past 3months life became upside-down because of my dearies baby. Had been feeling very low at that time yet she still do silly things that makes us worried sick for her. Humph... finally you get over everything, hope now u're the baby that we used to know. Don't forget your promise.
Been hanging out at Chillz Bar for that past 3months, almost every weekend 'd be going down there with friends. Till my sis gets so pissed off by me. But now I tried not to, for the sake of my dearest mummy. =) And because I just get into the new company, wanna excel in my work. So really must work hard. I do not wish to stay in my current position after 3years. Wanna some achievement eh?
Just got my computer fixed few days back. The very first webby I logged in to was friendster and checked out his page. Saw all the pixs he posted up, felt so envious of his girlfriend. I thought I had already get over after these 3years, but I realised... I still miss him occasionally. Been wondering how he's doing...
Though I met someone new, and he said to me when he's at Bangkok that he'd walk through with me. Hmm.. is really tough for me to forget you.
Late in the night...
... I was thinking of you
Alfred
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:24
11 July 2008
Hello everybody, I'm finally back. =)
Just a short entry to update you guys.
I had resigned from OC and joined ABN Amro since 1 July. For the past few months, many things happened, but already over. Currently, I just miss my dearies Kelly & Qin. Miss hanging out with 'em till dawn. Will you girls contact me asap? Misses
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:16
